This is Xyph. (Formely MrRacingmonster)
I been speedrunning since 2006. In 2020, after all the hardships, all the crap, drama, and everything i tried to leave in the past. I couldn't. People would troll the hell out of me, would harrassment, lie, slander, abuse, and have caused many issues in my life. Financially, Mentally, and Professionally.
In late 2020, I took the advice of many. I changed to Xyph, did the stuff when i started, speedrunning and lots of it. In august, someone found out Xyph was Racingmonster, and so came all the trolls on my new content/channel/life. The internet, has became a absolutely toxic enviornment, it's to the point It affects my life in the real world.
There a specific community on reddit called 'Stickless' but Call of Duty Speedrun Community does this aswell, theres a posse in there that just non-stops trolls the fuck out of me and if you pull their 'private chat' you would have the evidence.
I have went to such lengths to sue many people in my years of speedrunning for slander, defamation, mental distress. Just to wake them up to leave me go and bother someone else and just stop gossiping about me. No attorneys or Law enforcement would help. No one.
Over the years i have encased a criminal sheet of harrassment/terroristic threats for confronting some people in the hobby for this and threating to hurt them because that is where it has become to. The judges i get, don't believe in me standing up for myself and have destroyed me mentally. I am on 7 pills, 7 pills to be alive. All of them are shit that absolutely makes me unhuman. I have 40,000USD in medical debt, my credit score is destroyed, my parents no longer associate with me and I am on my own road currently. At 24 years old, I have hit the point where I don't see myself being sucessful, being productive or being happy. I will forever live in a pit of hell. This is due to the amount of mental abuse over the years, it has destroyed me in everything.
The next time you have beef/drama make up. If you think bullying and all this other shit i mentioned is cool. ITS NOT. Having a click in a community isn't cool. It just makes you shitty. Stop marginalizing people, stop doing a WOR/Jordie Jordan thing on people. My life is completely destroyed. I will never afford a house or a have a decent apartment because of my record. I am forever in therapy and out-patient services by court order because of the many diseases I have developed over the years. I am in a unescapeable hell. I cannot have a 'normal', or fresh start. A fresh start for me would be having my firearms/weapons back, my apartment back, my car, my happiness. The people took that away.
Also, speedrunning is dead. But the people who have egos, and are narcassists are running wild, and so are some of these people's fan clubs. just joining and picking their side for a piece of their popularity and spotlight. Thats never what this hobby was. it was about friendship, community building and building each other up. Now its tearing people down and becoming toxic and using vpns to hide yourself from being held accountable.
No im talking about people that overkill it SioN. Most people that may have been around longer then a few years might understand this more.
the community gets smaller when the full time speedrunners get bigger. AKA people that play all day and all night and give no chance of people to have the motivation to play. Thanks to SRC, and some other socials, you can track their activity to see if they are no-lifing or not. But if you want the community to grow, stop letting people that play 24/7, play 24/7, it kills motivation for everyone else. Just look at some FPS speed games. Theres always 1 guy ontop of the boards and no one else plays em compeitively because there isn't a point.
Because i wanna be famous. All the hours i put into this hobby, i want something out of it for my work. I don't feel im the only one that thinks themselves that can be among the top in the world. right?
I was going to use the coment section to promote myself, is that allowed? or is that advertising