how the hell did i pull that off in 2 attempts.. i'm not running this version of game anymore.. if i do.. im not holding back anymore. ..a night ago and yesterday was absolute fucking crazy. neither the 100% i tried or this shows what i did a few years back with this game. i have history with this game.. enough to set me over.. ..i mean there were ther thoughts contributing.. crap with my dad.. the streams being the way they were all of a sudden, my dads bullshit with the past, and now.. (cancer..) having a new niece.. the way things went in genral the past couple days.. the thoughts racing inside my head.. i should be able to do better than a 2:20.. 2 hours in-game time.. yet i wasn't able to show something at that level.. ..and if the game isn'tm working out for me, or my own heart gets in the way with my own mental health.. then yeah.. i have to know when to stop or i'll just wind up hurting myself.. literally.. some things i'll just keepn to myself.. i probably wouldn't hold back with all of my abillities if i tried again.. ..and in this case it would be a bad thing.. screw you past self.. ..you win this round..