shout out mental illness for making me really want to get sub 7 instead of settling on one run

Hello, I tried to delete a lot of my old stuff on June 6th because, without getting too specific, I had a serious mental breakdown and felt spiteful. As a result, all of my runs lack a working video now since they are linked to a YouTube account that has been deleted. I managed to recover my Twitch account during the grace period: twitch.tv/norascrubchan - most of my runs should still be there. My 1 Star and possibly 16 Star PBs are still missing, since they were only local recorded and uploaded to YouTube, but I might be able to get them off of my old computer if I didn't delete them. I didn't want to bring this up on Discord because I don't feel like engaging with too many people about this at once. I'm truly sorry for attempting to erase my speedrun history. Nobody should go down this path. Please do not try to contact me about this - I still need to take a break.