deciding to submit for fastest lap.. i didn't include any remix/mashup or anything again.. i'm starting to think i would have a hard time getting faster than 3rd place on controller with a flying type glitchless.. still haven't gotten like a new controller.. not sure if speed is actually faster here on this lvl or flying.. for some reason i think sonic is actually better to use than shadow.. not sure on that yet.. it's evn more of an issue with my mom having that surgery for me since well.. it's less of an issue for my sister now that she has a boyfriend.. so it'll be harder to do this than i thought.. obviously more painful for mom i bet.. i may hve to start on sleeping meds at some point.. i hve had a therapist.. idk.. guess i'll still keep trying.. i feel like i get more out of these runs in these videos if i submit. not like i get views on youtube anyways really.. least i hve something else to do evn though it's a double edge sword.. to get by in life.. since i'm too much of a coward to do much else.. among other things.. not that i don't care about others.. i mean i watch othr peoples videos too whether they are speedruns or not.. in fact i kind of replaced my old friends with them in a way.. i miss that.. the more real ones or what evr.. don't know why i feel the need to put this here. if i see someone better than me at some point in a game i just want to know what my limits are compared to them.. maybe their is a limit how far i can go (or break my limits..) ,but idk.. i blindly go into it.. i hate being whatevr i am..